We are in the dawn of the age of Aquarius, the cusp between the old, earth or matter based energies and the new, wind or mental based energies. Everything we have known, everything we have gotten used to, is on the way out, and the change will be abrupt, as 2020 has already shown us. I remember thinking on January 1st 2019 how different life for me had become, and how much more it would change. Of course I had no idea 2020 would be the shit storm of all time, the ultimate game changer for the entire planet. And by all accounts 2021 will be the year we feel the true repercussions of those changes. But for me, in the bussom of Esalen of 2019, it was more than enough of a game changer to celebrate and be thankful for. 2018 had been my initiation into the path of letting go, of allowing, and of accepting myself and where I was really at in life. And 2019 would clearly be the summation of that initiation through all the trails and errors one finds along the road to self discovery, and healing.
The first thing I did in the morning was go to the juice bar with B, one of my best and oldest friends. We drank a couple green juices between us and headed to town for a meeting with our two family's for breakfast, a ritual my Father always liked to initiate by saying, "Gather the Usual suspects." a line from the 1942 classic film, Casablanca. Blake drove us to my house in Pacific Grove and were the first to arrive on the scene. Blake's sister and her new family were there as well, I think it may have been the first time at our place, so it was an extra special occasion.
Birgit, my mother, had been making her own vegan butter and bread for a while and had fresh offerings of it for everyone, none of it lasted long around the table, fresh anything rarely does, but my mothers food disappears especially fast.
I spent some time working on a gift for my girlfriend, an amulet cast into silver, using 3d printing, my first foray into the technology, and rather exciting, if not a little frustrating. I wanted to deliver it to her by a certain time, but there was no guarantee it would work at all. Thankfully it worked out in the end. Birgit had designed it and our friend Brett had made the mold with his 3d printer.
After the party, I drove to another gathering with our friend Lance, a teacher in Seaside. This is where I gave Lee the mold for the amulet. Lance and I had a heart to heart as we usually do. This time the subject of our ramblings was great books from Spanish speaking authors. He told me of three to read, Christmas in the mountains, Macho, and one hundred years of solitude. To this date I have only read the last one.
Over the course of the day I had many insights into my relationships with people, especially lovers. There were signs everywhere around me, in the music playing at Home Depot, in conversations I happen to overhear when passing by old woman on the street. Even in graffitti sprayed under the overpass. All signs pointed inward, to a version of myself I had imprisoned and thrown away the key. It's easy to think of yourself one way, the way you want or need to think of yourself, when you have conveniently set aside any memory of contrary evidence. I knew in my heart that the best move was to be alone, to be comfortable in my own skin, to thrive as one complete being, instead of seeking completing with another. This I think is the biggest and most common mistake people make in relationships. One believes, rather foolishly, that they can be happy only when coupled with another, but this isn't true, one must be happy first, by themselves, then if and when someone else comes into your life, who is also happy on their own accord, your bond fuses and magnifies into something truly magnificent.
Then you bring something like Esalen into a relationship dynamic and you can write off much of your previous experience. Usually the only time you live and work with someone you love is if your married and run a business together, but to live and work for someone else, in a place that is basically a tourist attraction for the broken hearted, well, it gets rather complicated. It was only then and there at Esalen Institute, on the cliffs of Big Sur, during the last year of "Normalcy" for the whole planet, that I witnessed the strange and powerful world of relationships in a container. In a space within a space, designed to bring one closer to nature and their true selves that society usually permits. I saw people come together harder and faster, and more often than not to dangerous effect, than I ever had before, unless you consider television dramas to be valid examples of relationships, which in most cases they are not. In any case, I know that most of the people there were better off because of their relationships, as I feel about all connections between people, but especially those held on that sacred ground.
As we head into 2021 I can't help but look back at those turbulent and beautiful times, and try to relate them to those happening now. Of course there is little to compare between them, the world is such a different place now, one more or less unrecognizable when you look at it from a 2019 perspective. And if I'm being honest the beginning of 2020, even stretching into February, was still far more like 2019 and the four years before that, hell even the 10 years before that, than January of 2021 is to anything else. If one were to project into the future today and try and foresee what is to come, they would certainly have to recognize the great and terrible separation happening to us all, not only in terms of the forced lock downs and isolation between us, or the economic doom approaching us all like a biblical tsunami coming to wipe clean the lower echelon's of the world, leaving only the ivory towers of big business to survive, but also the destruction of culture, history, and family. Of course all these things could not and would not stand if the people of Earth knew what Truth, Love and Freedom are, and defended them with their lives. Which is why those things have always been under attack by the forces of darkness in our world, for they need people to refuse their own power, in order to control them.
The great reset, the elites wet dream for centralized control of the planet, using covid-19 as the pretext, once a conspiracy theory mocked and ridiculed, is now openly pushed day after day by the world economic forum, time magazine and the slime stream media. In one breath they say it isn't real, in the next they push it as the only option for our salvation. How is it that those who have profited most from the failed economic systems of the world for the last 100 years, and those most responsible for the pain and misery of Earths people, are now holding sway over the planet with a new system, one that will ensure their dominance forever? The answer my friends, is (problem, reaction, solution) the devils favorite song and dance, its long and terrible game to fool humanity. But this time we are wise to it, this time we'll rise against it, free to play our own song and dance, free at long last to choose our own path. Are you ready for the evolution?